To Know and Be Fully Known

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Most of us have probably had the experience of stepping out of the shower and then looking at ourselves in the mirror — only to find our image blurry and indistinct from the fogginess of the bathroom humidity.

Or perhaps on other occasions, we have looked deeply into a clear reflection of ourselves and been greatly displeased or harshly critical with the physical image we perceived there in front of us.

Why is it that we put so much stock into a mirror when it can only give a partial and superficial perspective of the truth? Why are we prone to give so much credit to what we can see when our true value lies hidden beyond what a simple mirror could ever reveal?

I wonder… do most people clearly see and express gratitude for their own inner beauty – the qualities that others admire and enjoy – or are we all humanly inclined to focus on our negative features and hone in on characteristics and circumstances we wish we could change?

Sometimes when I think about my son who died by suicide in 2009, I wonder if he had repeatedly looked into a mirror – or into an inner inventory of himself and his life — and been deeply dissatisfied with what he saw reflected there. I wonder if in confusion and haze he believed an inaccurate perspective of who he was or irrationally exaggerated the troubles he sensed.

I Corinthians 13:12 “Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.”

When I hold up a mirror and stare deeply into it, I see only a veiled reflection of both myself and the circumstances of my life. Because of my humanness, I only vaguely understand many aspects of both my own existence and my son’s despairing death. There is so much I can neither begin to understand nor fully know.

But someday – oh, someday in Glory! – I will completely see and totally understand, just as my son is now joyously doing! I will see with perfect clarity and will finally comprehend all the mysteries God wants revealed to me.

Aren’t you looking forward to that day?

Suzy